Here we go again!

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So, after a years hiatus, I have decided it's time to get back on with the show. I was bored with facebook, bored with t.v., bored with reading (Sorry Lord), decided to get caught up on a friend's blog and got to thinking about writing some poetry. Well that well ran dry.

But what I noticed, looking at my poetry on this blog, that it was 1 year ago since my last post.
What a wild ride this year has been. Full of ups and downs, blessings and losses. What was even more funny, (I almost had to wonder if my subconscious remembered and I did not) was today was Robby's neurology appointment at 1:15. He wasn't feeling well and neither was big Rob so I had to cancel. Crazy huh?

I honestly had to laugh, trying not to wake either Rob, about the Taking It Back post. It made me realize how I have come a long way since last year and yet still miss the mark. I have found intense emotional healing in some areas of forgiveness and still struggle in others. Thankfully, He is still working on me.

I have been trying to figure out what to do with myself these days. I have been wavering between whether to take on a part - time job or take some classes. I am pretty sure the latter is the route I am going as being dependable isn't that great of an option for me. Since I love doing research and my favorite subject is comparative religions, I think that is the route I will be taking. However, as flighty as I can be, who knows. Rob has recommended I need to work toward a religion or theology degree as he says forget a job, we want you home, follow what interests you the most. There is always time later to worry about a career of some kind. I am betting it's going to take a lot of prayer before any decision is made.

It's so funny to me that I have made fun of Rob forever about being a reality t.v. junkie, yet sadly I am following that same route. Between American Idol, Shear Genius, Celebrity Rehab and Sober House, Kitchen Nightmares as well as the countless other cooking shows we watch, I have become just like him. And sadly, I get soooo caught up in them. Poor Rob looks on in dismay as his pathetic wife is crying because someone got voted off. Not that I am feeling all that terrible about it as I have to listen to his UFC championships all the time. Nothing like testosterone laden t.v. to cause him to become someone from another planet. Grrr. Hehe.
Still I have it far better than he does. The poor man does not understand my obsession with missing persons. I told him to be thankful as one day if he disappears, at least I will want to find him. That's if I didn't have anything to do with why he went missing in the first place...I'm just sayin'. J/K.

This has been such a trying time for me trying to accept that my little girl isn't so little anymore. Even with Robby turning 20 this year, I tend to always see and think of him as a child. But Kye...Oh dear. She is graduating in just a couple months and will be turning 18 shortly after. I am sooo not ready for this. It has been hard enough living through the hormone laden days where I thought "Child, don't make me lose my salvation on you!" or "Don't make me have a Come To Jesus meeting with you in the backyard!", to now thinking of college, adulthood, marriage and eventually motherhood (she claims otherwise). Can you legally ground an 18 year old??? I can barely get that child to take out the garbage or load the dishwasher without complaining. How on earth am I gonna manage then? It really is amazing how quickly time passes and you think back and wonder how did it all go by so fast. I am just so lucky that she has turned out so marvelous with such nerds for parents.

Connor will be turning 10 on Monday and I am so amazed at the young man he is growing up to be. Thankfully, he still thinks girls have cooties so I have a year or two hopefully before he becomes someone else's child lol. He is content to just l.a.r.p. and hang with the folks for now. Although I have to question whether it is normal for a boy to talk on the phone 4 to 5 hours a day. I tell Rob, hey at least he has friends and is social. He is not hanging out in his room plotting world domination or death and destruction somewhere. But man that kid has the gift for gab. I have no idea where he got that from :P. Well okay, yeah I do know where. But I am glad he is social like me. Luckily where I lack in the humor department, his father does not so he has that going for him. Now if we can just keep him from getting his father and sister's sarcastic quick wit, all will be well. I have never been quick witted. By the time I think I have come up with any type of witty response, it's 3 or 4 am and everyone is in bed. Sigh. We can't all be funny and that's okay by me. I can still pull off sarcasm without the great humor.

Hopefully it will not take me another year to post something. And if I ever get up enough enthusiasm I might put my recent poetry on here as well. Sadly I feel too lazy to type it all up from my journal right now. Jo, I hope you are happy. I actually forced myself to do this.
After all, it's free therapy right?!







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Here we go again!

5:13 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
So, after a years hiatus, I have decided it's time to get back on with the show. I was bored with facebook, bored with t.v., bored with reading (Sorry Lord), decided to get caught up on a friend's blog and got to thinking about writing some poetry. Well that well ran dry.

But what I noticed, looking at my poetry on this blog, that it was 1 year ago since my last post.
What a wild ride this year has been. Full of ups and downs, blessings and losses. What was even more funny, (I almost had to wonder if my subconscious remembered and I did not) was today was Robby's neurology appointment at 1:15. He wasn't feeling well and neither was big Rob so I had to cancel. Crazy huh?

I honestly had to laugh, trying not to wake either Rob, about the Taking It Back post. It made me realize how I have come a long way since last year and yet still miss the mark. I have found intense emotional healing in some areas of forgiveness and still struggle in others. Thankfully, He is still working on me.

I have been trying to figure out what to do with myself these days. I have been wavering between whether to take on a part - time job or take some classes. I am pretty sure the latter is the route I am going as being dependable isn't that great of an option for me. Since I love doing research and my favorite subject is comparative religions, I think that is the route I will be taking. However, as flighty as I can be, who knows. Rob has recommended I need to work toward a religion or theology degree as he says forget a job, we want you home, follow what interests you the most. There is always time later to worry about a career of some kind. I am betting it's going to take a lot of prayer before any decision is made.

It's so funny to me that I have made fun of Rob forever about being a reality t.v. junkie, yet sadly I am following that same route. Between American Idol, Shear Genius, Celebrity Rehab and Sober House, Kitchen Nightmares as well as the countless other cooking shows we watch, I have become just like him. And sadly, I get soooo caught up in them. Poor Rob looks on in dismay as his pathetic wife is crying because someone got voted off. Not that I am feeling all that terrible about it as I have to listen to his UFC championships all the time. Nothing like testosterone laden t.v. to cause him to become someone from another planet. Grrr. Hehe.
Still I have it far better than he does. The poor man does not understand my obsession with missing persons. I told him to be thankful as one day if he disappears, at least I will want to find him. That's if I didn't have anything to do with why he went missing in the first place...I'm just sayin'. J/K.

This has been such a trying time for me trying to accept that my little girl isn't so little anymore. Even with Robby turning 20 this year, I tend to always see and think of him as a child. But Kye...Oh dear. She is graduating in just a couple months and will be turning 18 shortly after. I am sooo not ready for this. It has been hard enough living through the hormone laden days where I thought "Child, don't make me lose my salvation on you!" or "Don't make me have a Come To Jesus meeting with you in the backyard!", to now thinking of college, adulthood, marriage and eventually motherhood (she claims otherwise). Can you legally ground an 18 year old??? I can barely get that child to take out the garbage or load the dishwasher without complaining. How on earth am I gonna manage then? It really is amazing how quickly time passes and you think back and wonder how did it all go by so fast. I am just so lucky that she has turned out so marvelous with such nerds for parents.

Connor will be turning 10 on Monday and I am so amazed at the young man he is growing up to be. Thankfully, he still thinks girls have cooties so I have a year or two hopefully before he becomes someone else's child lol. He is content to just l.a.r.p. and hang with the folks for now. Although I have to question whether it is normal for a boy to talk on the phone 4 to 5 hours a day. I tell Rob, hey at least he has friends and is social. He is not hanging out in his room plotting world domination or death and destruction somewhere. But man that kid has the gift for gab. I have no idea where he got that from :P. Well okay, yeah I do know where. But I am glad he is social like me. Luckily where I lack in the humor department, his father does not so he has that going for him. Now if we can just keep him from getting his father and sister's sarcastic quick wit, all will be well. I have never been quick witted. By the time I think I have come up with any type of witty response, it's 3 or 4 am and everyone is in bed. Sigh. We can't all be funny and that's okay by me. I can still pull off sarcasm without the great humor.

Hopefully it will not take me another year to post something. And if I ever get up enough enthusiasm I might put my recent poetry on here as well. Sadly I feel too lazy to type it all up from my journal right now. Jo, I hope you are happy. I actually forced myself to do this.
After all, it's free therapy right?!







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